Hi, my name is Laketa and I’m a control freak! When I’m unsure of my next steps I become frustrated and extremely anxious. I always need a plan, strategy, and direction. Can you relate? If you answered yes then I pray what you’re about to read helps you!
Not knowing what moves to make or which way to go is uncomfortable and terrifying. I’ve always set goals and achieved them, but how can I do that when I don’t know what I want next? I reached out to my pastor recently about how to know the difference between making moves for myself and what God wants me to do. He recommended that I read three bible verses; Proverbs 21:2, Psalm 37:4, and Proverbs 19:21. It was just what I needed. The MSG version of Proverbs 19:21 was my favorite because it simply stated…
“We humans keep brainstorming options and plans, but God’s purpose prevails.”
My interpretation of the verse is that I don’t need to always have a plan or make a move right away. God’s plan and purpose for my life will always triumph. This is regardless of my mistakes, lack of resources, frustration, and worry. I don’t need all of the answers right now and neither do you! If I feel like I need to be in control of every step, I have a trust issue with God. Instead, I continue to pray and ask God to help me trust him fully with every detail of my life.
There is no doubt that all my needs and desires are going to be met, even if I don’t know exactly what they are right now. It’s not a matter of “if”, it’s only a matter of “when”. Sometimes you learn the most when you’re just still. I’m more concerned with seeking God’s presence than my 20 year trajectory plan. Being still is learning to have genuine gratitude for the past and present while working to improve self. Since I’ve released the control, I’ve felt a peace I can’t even explain.
Let’s trust God too much to worry! Continue to work and develop, but don’t be so obsessed with future plans. Take a moment to make a list of everything you’re thankful for. Create a list of 100 things you want to do during your lifetime. Yes, 100! See if your mind can even imagine 100 things to accomplish. Spend time with family, pray more, and do something your future self will thank you for. I guarantee you’ll begin to feel less anxious.