“For the LORD God is a sun and shield; The LORD gives grace and glory; No good thing does He withheld from those who walk uprightly.”
I was cleaning up around the house the other day. While cleaning, I just started thinking about God and His faithfulness that He has towards me and His people in general. I thought of how even on my best day, He has been more loyal to me than I have been to myself. No matter how much I say I love myself, His love always trumps that.
Some time ago, I was struggling with friendships and love interests. I would be fighting for certain romantic relationships and friendships and couldn’t understand why they never worked out for me. I was angry and annoyed because I saw how other people went through things in relationships, but were still able to keep their relationships while I was forced to let go of mine. The reason God would not permit me to have certain relationships was that He wouldn’t allow me to struggle, be put down, cheated on, belittled, disrespected etc.
I was so adamant about keeping a bad relationship or friendship just to say I had one. Like most people, I would cry from something someone did, get mad, go off and after that convince myself that if the person put in the work, I could change the situation. I would do this all while knowing God was clearly showing me that this wasn’t working for me and He had something better. At that time I didn’t want better, I wanted what I wanted and I just wanted something. (You know how stubborn we are sometimes.) However, God won that challenge.
Each time the relationships didn’t work out, I went through a healing process. After the relationship failed I saw things I hadn’t seen before about myself and the person I so desperately wanted. I saw how those relationships would never have helped me to grow into what God wanted me to become. Staying in these toxic relationships would have caused me to become more insecure than I was before trying to have friendships with people I should have never been involved with. I realized I wasn’t missing anything. I thank God for His loyalty. He is so faithful and just.
I fought hard for things that had great potential to kill me. We often times think that we know what’s best for us, but that is not always true. We often pursue our own demise without even knowing it. However, God steps in with His loving nature and saves us every time. There is a reason why certain things don’t always work out.
God’s sight goes beyond ours. He is able to see the things we can’t see. He is more dedicated to us than we can ever imagine. He loves us and wants the best for us. If God has taken anything from you, it means that it was not good for you. Trust His timing and walk upright before Him. He has great things in store for you.